Dani, don't kill me.
I'm thinking of discontinuing this blog.
I've really been lax in my updates recently, and when I do update I never have anything to say that's very important any more.
I started this blog way back in 2004 as an exercise in colour commentary on my hockey obsession. Then it kind of became my diary replacement (I had kept a written diary since 1999 and stopped about a year after I started blogging), and now I find that I don't really have the compulsion to spill verbiage all over the page anymore. I just have too many other things to do that are much too mundane to make interesting reading for anyone else.
I have been thinking about this for a while, but it came to a head this weekend.
Why?
I painted my kitchen. It took me a long time, but I did it all by myself (Andy helped me move the furniture) and I did a really good job. I'm very pleased with it. But THIS is the most exciting thing that has happened to me recently - completing another task in a long line of domestic achievements.
I'm sorry folks, but I can't sport with your intelligence by making you read that drivel day in and day out.
I love writing. I really do. I love being able to get my thoughts out on paper in a way that never seems right when they come out of my mouth. Writing is a very soothing thing for me, and that's why I have kept it up for so long.
When I started this, I was in an uncertain time: fighting with depression, dealing with the death of a friend, lonely, unsure of my future . . . you name it, I was going through it. Now, six years later, things are different. I'm slowly and painfully working my way towards the career of my dreams, I'm married to the best friend I have ever had and things are looking good. I mean, it's a good thing when the highlight of your day is how well you deal with red paint, right? It's better than drama - and trust me, I've had my fair share.
What I'm saying is, essentially, I think I have outgrown this thing. It was a crutch of sorts that I have moved beyond.
I am still writing - it's part of what I do for school, and I hope to turn my writing skills into part of my career some day. But when I write now it's for different reasons. And I have new hobbies now.
I'm working on my photography, and that, if nothing else, is a more accurate record of my opinions and daily adventurings. I certainly update my photo website much more often than I update allythebell.net. If you want to keep track of me, follow me on Flickr: http://www.flickr.com/photos/alio. You can see my kitchen there, too!
I don't know. I am still thinking about it. But we may be seeing the end. It was a good ride, thanks for being here.
Posted by Ally at January 24, 2010 10:34 PM