terrified of the future
I have been neglecting you, my pretties, and I'm sorry.
Not much to tell, really. Since my weekend of bliss at the Hilton Lac Leamy,
everything else has just been a gray blur: mostly of assignments, both my own
and my students'.
Got ANOTHER rejection letter when I got home today, this one from University
of Alberta. One -- Carleton -- left. I am dreading it. Although I suppose
it's a good sign that I haven't gotten any thin envelopes from them yet -- it
might take longer to put together a registration package. Of course, the
Carleton application was also DUE later than the others . . .
If I don't get into grad school, I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't
stay in this job, and do it full time. I would die. What am I supposed to
do? Apply again next year? Perhaps if I don't get in this time around, I'll
apply to teacher's college in the fall for January enrollment, and get my B.Ed
over and done with.
Goddamnit, there are only two and a half weeks left to go, and I need more
time! At the same time, I want it all to be over.
Alas -- I lead a split existence.
Posted by Ally at March 22, 2005 06:19 PM